Gratitude turns what we have into enough. Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Wednesday! I’m sure the markets are packed with last-minute shoppers for tomorrow’s Thanksgiving feasts!

Since OU Boy has the flu and it is awful, we aren’t doing any huge thing this year. Being grateful that the Native Americans gave us refugees dinner that one time before we slaughtered them all and now will feed us at their casinos.

This year has been up and down. Much like everyone’s I imagine. The good, the bad and the oh so ugly! One thing I have learned is that you should believe people when they show you who they are the first time. I am thankful for the community of support for Crohn’s Disease and Anxiety Disorders. I am thankful for a husband who loves me faults and all and shows me every day!

I’m thankful for all of the book bloggers and authors we support. And Free Speech! I am thankful that I have created a family that I need and didn’t just accept the one they gave me. Whoever ‘they’ are. And we are all thankful for pie. And tea. And books. And Kindness. Sprinkle that shit liberally on all of your holiday celebrations.

And share. Whether it’s a plate of turkey or a slice of pie, share with someone. And my final piece of advice, you are now an adult, which means you can eat Thanksgiving food any time of the year you want! Yes!!

What did one turkey say to the other? “What are you thankful for?” “Vegetarians”.

Gobble, Gobble.

xx P

Dear Katherine Arden, Thank You

The Bear and the Nightingale (Winternight Trilogy, #1) The Girl in the Tower (Winternight Trilogy, #2) The Winter of the Witch (Winternight Trilogy, #3)

I have been trying to get my husband to read the first one of this series for a long time! He was always too busy until now. As most of the world knows now, the doctors have discovered a large mass on his pelvis. As we wait for surgery he has time.

Yesterday I walked in the den and he was half-way in to the first book. I quietly backed out of the room.  When he was almost to the end last night he looked over at me and said, ” This is great! Do we have the next one?”  Why yes we do! “And what about the third one?” Well, honey I have it in an ARC on my tablet but it’s from Netgalley and I don’t think I am supposed to share it. ” But, what am I supposed to do?” You wait dear, just like the rest of the world we wait and hope that there is more!

After a few of long and frightening weeks we went an entire day without tears or anxiety. So Ms. Arden, thank you from this frazzled reviewer and wife.

 

xx P

 

Life, Miracles and an Eye Update!

The saying above is so very true. Life is a series of thousands of tiny miracles. And we should be noticing them. Being mindful, being engaged with the moment you are in and not thinking ahead to what’s next.

June 28 was a year since I woke up with a corneal ulcer and totally blind in one eye. When we finally got it uninfected, I had to wait while the thing healed. Then the end of February I had surgery to remove the scarring and the cornea and have a transplant.

2 months ago I had 2 stitches taken out. I didn’t see or feel anything then. Yesterday I spent hours with different cameras taking pictures of the little fellow clinging to my eyeball and the 14 stitches left holding it in place. And then my surgeon took one more out. This time I saw all of the equipment and I was amazed how tiny scissors and a needle can be! I’m progressing very well. My vision in that eye is still wonky but improves a few days after these stitch removals. Not as in good enough to drive or anything like that, but it’s improving. Now we shall start removing them every 6 weeks and then I’ll have another surgery.

My surgeon asked me what this past year has been like for me. Scary, full of anxiety, a lot of whining and moaning dramatically. But I also don’t rely on my sight completely anymore. My sense of smell and awareness of the things around me are heightened. I am extremely mindful of every thing I do. What the people around me are doing. I do one thing at a time. I let people help me. Pride has gone who knows where.

While my husband has to leave the room for every procedure as he is squeamish, my doctor and I do a lot of talking. About books, tea, especially tea. And yesterday he said,” You know through this whole thing, you’ve never complained to me. Never said no to me. You sit still as a statue and let us hurt you and learn from you and you never say a word. How do you do that?”  Me: “I trust you”. And that is the truth. I trust this man who is the best in his field. It’s just that simple. I trust him and the gratitude I feel for him and his residents is enormous. I have had tiny miracles every step of the way. When things should have gone bad from the beginning, they didn’t. When I had no idea how I was going to come up with $30,000.00 up front for the surgery, it just showed up in my mailbox the day before Christmas Eve.

Today will be a rather uncomfortable day but that’s to be expected. I’ll still be able to read because I have one good eye. And that’s more than some people have. Notice the tiny miracles around you. Seek them out. Make them happen.

Thank you all for supporting me on this journey. Now, go be someone’s miracle worker!

xx Patricia

Open Your Eyes!

The first words I heard when Jodi put my new glasses in place. And I have to admit I was a little anxious about it.

Everything is bright and beautiful to me today! This past year of being blind, getting the transplant and now I only have 14 stitches left so my surgeon gave me the okay to wear glasses!

Of course since my daughter-in -love is the optometrist for the Warby Parker here in OKC, she and Tommy were there when I got to see again for the first time since last June.

Very emotional for all of us. It has been like being dropped on another planet full of beauty and me just walking around going “Wow!”.  I found an entire closet of clothes I hadn’t been able to see and there will be no more Speech to Text for me! I am actually typing this.

My eyes are open and although it will be a while until the one eye gets with the program and all the stitches come out, but when I woke up this morning all I could think was, “What a Wonderful World!”

So excuse me while I go and see just how many cobwebs are hiding in the corners of the house!

xx Patricia

Monday Thoughts…Gratitude

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At work today we are doing an experiment on saying Thank You. To each other, to the universe, to any and everyone we meet today. Make eye contact and say Thank you and smile. Whether it’s to the copy boy , the coffee barista, or  to all of you people in the Blog World who keep me informed, entertained, thinking and debating,expanding my world and view of said world from your points of view.

Thank You!

xxPatricia